Cocooning in my room, exiled from life
watching all things pass, I am not concerned
nothing seems worth doing or to fix on
and I have no more questions, no duties to serve
Heydays, oh I had none
Hum- hum- humdrum

And I, I die slowly
in the grip oft stasis
in the grip oft stasis

Speechless each time the turn is up to me
I can hardly get myself into action
since lack of good sensations confines existance
weary of all gestures and the burden of feeling

And I, I die slowly
in the grip oft stasis
in the grip oft stasis

Solitude frames fleeting time
wish I could sail the ocean to your heart
your love would wrap me warm
I could flourish in your season
but I’m captured by the absence
of physical consequence

I bank up like a lake
against my failing to proceed
I want to explode like a rocket
and light up the sky for a moment
to be a reflection in your eyes
before I disappear

Wish I would not pass unknown
through moments in your life
my nets only catch parts of it

Awaiting things to come
And casting my fate on confidence
That’s what I should learn in these days

I reduce myself firmly on a scale to less
and I cut down to basic behaviour
until the pain subsides
I silently steal away from crowded places
into the space for private manoeuvres
according to my demands

I am happy and I’m sad
violently straight in my privacy
recess indended
about to reconcile with my sanity

Not any longer willin‘ to take part
in any of these trivial life-simulations
I cancel my desire and sexuality
for release from suspence and its torment

I am happy and I’m sad
confident and afraid in my privacy

Moments were to go by and prospects vanished
when I stood deserted at my utmost need
I would cut through so easily
if body-approach didn’t depend on
instinctive courting

I am happy and I’m sad
violently straight in my privacy
recess indended
about to reconcile with my sanity

Tomorrow will find me farther away than today
I will have left behind mediocre standards
finally alone and out

Dull stream of day slackens
it’s been a strain so far
discharge from the least fine mode
everything dissolves
it’s over now

Pulse weakens in wires
narcotic varnish drips
into soiled brain-corridors
a painless ending
so near at hand

Under cold wings of night
skin and bones half rotten
laid out on white linen
the body naked and dismembered

Frontiers of pain cast off a chance
to get contact
I once with ambitions stood so tall
now chart my fall
your ignorance runs ditches in my heart

So many times around
I wanted to break your ground
I felt for you

Still sensing your trace
your soothing affection
your shinning face

I felt for you

All these confused alarms
in the case of courting
set me wanting less
than any other man would
distances however widen between you and me

So many times I was around
for no other reason
but to break your ground
because I felt for you

I felt for you

Rain like tears swept the court
of sadness in the end
silence echoes from
these white bleak walls
someone calls, somewhere secluded going numb

I’m losing my belief
for I don’t stand to win
any relief

So many times I was around
for no other reason
but to break your ground
because I felt for you

Sun‘s exhausting in burning red
her last ray’s a warm and cosy cover
spreading out against
each fibre of life that bends

I’m walking down a layer on ground
behind pale green contours of fields
shades are loaded with waft
of sudden decay

Mem’ries line up in different terms
alarmings defects are much in evidence
make it quite plain that
I’ve missed the time to recommence

All the time alone on the tracks
a remnant at this solitary place
where I can stand my exposure
to a certain extend

In my prime I yearn for comfort
nothing’s on hand but lonely senses
if only you would find me
before summer’s fading into fall

For the last time I intimate the sun
dying off so far from the eye
the ripping days are ticking away
no compensation for the loss and waste
beyond recall summer’s fading into fall

I’d like to crown your head with stars
and when the night paints my life black
your shiny colours would make a bright scene
out of of this drag

Fading up the focus upon you
falling for your charms as they spreads
events in theirs course and in their range
take a new shape

Holding on in expectation
of a sign from you
and hoping that you feel
the same way as I do

Straighten my ways to your tempting styles
too long a time I was left behind
I really don’t want to retrace
my steps anymore

Sensual features are now reborn
embarking to a great love-set
intimate gestures refer to an echo
from the heart

I fade myself out of dreams
craving for realm of brighter light
I lose myself into you
push over lumps of resistance

I feel, believe and see
that you effect
the cure from despair

I’m cruising up from bore
to the branches of certainty
the innocence compels no more
I can feel it ebbing away

I feel, believe and see
that you effect
the cure from despair

Tears have become seeds of sadness
lapsed into sediments of lonliness
a taste of bitter losses cannot be denied
more and more I feel like flotsam and jetsam
swept upon a distance shore
no prospect ever to be found

Parts sadly stages and performed
in situations lacking communication
the best show fails to meet the expectations
no reply’s under way on serious intimations

Hail, hail the alien
longing for attention

Seized down and shaped to lonely decades
fallen fast and far from the estate of grace
a silent presence of isolation breeds
turmoil, confusion and tormenting threats
I’m creeking on bleak circuit
through ancient deserts of pain

Save, save the alien
refrain from receding

Parts sadly stages and performed
in situations lacking communication
the best show fails to meet the expectations
no reply’s under way on serious intimations

Hail, hail the alien
longing for attention

Save, save the alien
refrain from receding